3:00 PM

How important is my health.. ? Its no joke..

So as I've been complaining about on my twitter and facebook accounts I have so much to do and just haven't had the energy or time to do it.  I'm suppose to be moving at the end of this month, literally when I get back from Vegas, but my home is not packed.  I've been working everyday and dealing with my extra guess, my stuff and the prospect of organizing everything so that I can move seamlessly just has been overwhelming.  Also, a major issue is my health.... some of you may already know that I'm a diabetic.  I have type 2 diabetes and it has been out of control for way too long. I recently got hooked back up with a Dr. and got another glucometer to test my blood sugar along with a prescription for some meds.  It was crazy, yesterday I tested my sugar level after eating a pizza from trader joes and my level was 481.  I've been denial for so damn long.  If I would have went to a hospital they would have admitted me.  Instead I drank water, felt extremely sleepy and just counted the minutes until I could leave work and start my hour long journey home.

The meds they game me really mess me up... they've prescribed Metformin.  Many know about this drug as its prescribed for other things aside from insulin resistance.  It's also used to help treat PCOS.. but I just can't stomach it.  So, I may just try to fight through the sickness to give it another fair shot or just say hey! ya'll need to hook me up with something else.  What will be important in all of this is my effort and follow through.  Since I started testing my sugar its a bit depressing I will admit.  I literally felt like yesterday I was sitting at my desk dying and no one knew or really was concerned. But guess what!  I've been living like this for every day for who knows how long now..  I'm just actually getting to see it with this meter.

So.. even though I'm not happy about not being ready to move while working full time and doing everything else.  I understand.. hell I've been sick.. my energy level has been low.. and hey I'm glad I've done what I've gotten done.  I'm not giving up..  My plan for today is to go pick up my keys to  my new place, though I can't move in till the 30th I believe.  Then I'll need to pick up a couple of things for the trip and off to go home.. where I will pack probably with the speed of a turtle but maybe I can get in a zone.  Its been said that my company will be helping me and I really do hope that they will but I'm sure its going to cost me.  Which is a bit upsetting but if this means I'll be moving by myself.. they maybe its just what I need to do.  So, yeah.  I've been asked by my landlord to stay.  This was really last minute.. I think starting over the weekend even though he knew I was going to be moving for almost a month.  He's offered to lower my rent a bit.. I really love my little place.. its really cute and as much as I hate apartment buildings I'm just not sure.

Even though I may have been a casualty of random criminal acts... I just don't know if I want to stick around.  Well.. if I decide to sign the lease today, even with my items not all the way packed.. that will solidify my decision to move.

I'm hoping to improve things.. living circumstances and health but it will require sacrifice and hard work by me.  Lets see what I come up with..
2:01 PM

I'm finally moving.. thank goodness!!!

First my house was burglarized, then I was robbed at gun point 2 blocks from my house with a friend at a gas station and then someone broke into my car right in front of my house.... you'd think I was living in the jungle of Oakland.  Now I'm not far away from the madness but even as I look at the houses outside, blue skys and decently taken care of lawns it still doesn't make much sense.  I'm a keep to myself type of gal..  that could be good and I guess it could be bad.  I do try to wave at my neighbors but I'm usually not the one to initiate long involved conversations.  I remember a few years ago I was afraid to be in Oakland..  thought if I was caught in the wrong part a group of kids/young adults with dreads was going to hop onto my car, crack my windshield in some side show.  Mind you I hadn't seen any of this for myself but if you let the news tell it Oakland was not the place to be.

So how do I feel now.. honestly not much goodness has come out of the stint of living in Oakland, its been about a good 1 1/2 years.  I still don't think its all bad, there are some good spots in Oakland.. but I do think there are quiet a bit of places folks are better to just stay away from.  So.. where am I moving to?   Guess what, Oakland!  I know I know.. but I think its a cool place, a different vibe, more working folks.. its by the lake.. you know you got the people who are trying to be healthy jogging, biking and pushing their baby in a stroller around the lake in the name of being active.  I'm hoping its a good move.  Only problem now is.... well there are a few problems.. one being that I don't have enough time in my day to get all the stuff done that I need to do.  I don't know how I do it but I accumulate stuff and more stuff.. and more stuff.. within a relatively short period of time.

I need to pack all of this stuff as well as get rid of a bunch more.  Today I decided to finally just go get a storage it, the likelihood that I will get through everything and rid of what I don't need come the end of the month is just not very likely.  Plus, I'm planning on going to Vegas towards the end of the month for a wedding.  I honestly don't have time to do it but its already paid for and I'm going.  So, I have 10 more days to pack, organize and get ready for my end of the month move.

Mind you I have to work during this time so I'm suppose to be doing the most of this work after I get off of work. This is only the tip of the iceberg.. I'm not quite ready to put my real work on blast.. because its the result of decisions that I made.  I just think its unnecessary.... its adding a great coat of drama over it all.  Plus I'm sick.. coughing up a storm.. I feel like just resting but somehow, someway I gotta get it together... I'm hoping that this ends up going well..

Wish me luck.. cause I really do need it!


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